Sometimes I feel like I’m too nice. Like I let my boyfriend walk all over me. Not that he really does I just feel like I put in more than I get out. I feel like he doesn’t really think that highly of me. Idk. I feel like I’m ugly and fat. Idk. I might just be emotional. But I hate when he’s so rude before bed. I just feel annoying so maybe I should just stop talking for awhile. It’s not even just him. Everyone just stops listening to me after awhile. I just feel so uninteresting or like I just sound stupid. Maybe I am stupid and I just want to believe really hard that I’m smart. I have my moments I guess. But for the most part I think I’m pretty dumb. Ha. Idk what to think. I feel like I’m turning back to old me. I don’t like old me. I’m rude. Fuck. I hate old me. I feel like I can’t get to new me. I’m not optimistic and I’m sad. Idk.
So you want to now everything about me, huh? Well, let’s see… I'm Syreassa. I'm 18, I'm happily taken <3 I live in Phoenix, Arizona but, I used to live in Fargo, North Dakota. I’ve always been that weird kid but everyone always loved me. I’ve always had a lot of friends and tend not to get annoyed easily. Most of my good friends are guys. I’ve been a spoiled brat because I was the only grand kid and niece on both sides of the family (for a while) I used to think the world was perfect and nothing was wrong but life started getting real…fast. I basically went through a lot of sit and ended up being an emotional basket case, then i smoked a bowl and figured out all my problems and grew up. I smoke a blunt a day for the most part now. I started to see everything differently! I’ve always stayed out of drama and always watch cartoons, because fuck reality TV a lot of the time. South Park, Regular Show, and Adventure Time are a few of my favorite shows. I love all kinds of music, Odd Future and old school rap are the most listened to. I know so many songs for so many situations. I used to be obsessed with InuYasa when I was little. I watch a lot of anime but that was my favorite. I’m now obsessed with Naruto and Tyler The Creator. I’m very blunt and usually don’t care about dick holes. I like sex a lot but I don’t need it, more so, don’t want it usually. I'm strictly dickly. :) I love tallll (because I’m short 5”1’) brown boys but, I don't discriminate. I’m very creative and can free and draw smaller pictures bigger. I also sorta rap and write songs. I love my Xbox more than people and if it’s not near I get stressed out. I love I love doing my make-up and hair. I love cute clothes. My favorite colors are purple and green I hate cats…oh! Did I mention, my dad is a body builder. I’m very smart and love strategy, RPG, and casual games. Spyro, The Legend of Zelda, and Warcraft have always been my favs. I wish Pokemon were real. Lizards rock my socks. Most people would say in a way, I'm a guy. I love to love people and people tend to be rude to me a lot. and if I get pissed off enough I could honestly kill without regret. Buuuuuuuut I’m smarter than that and control myself. I get jealous a lot and care a lot for people. I’m lazy generally but work hard for my job. I’m addicted to craigslist and my grades in school usually suck, but I am really smart…well that’s basically me. Feel free to ask me anything. I’m honest as fuck.